The people monitoring me in private just threw out my whole life.  I feel too damaged for an afterlife.

They made it so there is no hope.

They won't stop telling me what to do or else, like I got in some agreement when I didn't.

It's over!

People are saying she is finally getting new ways of being inappropriately stimulated.

They won't stop just because I said how they said the lady hurt me and like I'm her mother when she's older.

So, just because I thought it'd be nice maybe not to say what the lady does in this people being mean to me, they made it a real rule and now this is happening.  What lies.

So, I figured I was fine with what the Late Baby Boomer European lady is doing.

However, people kept saying more things.

I was told I wasn't perfect because I included something she may have said in a point, according to others, whatever happened this one day.  So, her "relationship" with me seems to be so it partly stops or lessens and she gets inappropriately stimulated like forever.

They said someone how I don't wanna is gonna restrain me sexually on Friday/s! while she does get stimulated yet maybe inappropriately.

It's like no one else can be stimulated, and everyone is special, but look what happens to me.

Not directing this at the lady, but how stupid really and the mother in me is beat if I post an insecurity having to do with the people monitoring me in private and ruined my life?

Anyway, I just wanted to report the antics of the people monitoring me in private and noticing people going 2 ways about if it's the people monitoring me in private or in the confusing situation really from them..  It was so obnoxious and out there so much etc., the way the people monitoring me in private act, like my dad said to set a disgusting example for me as their excuse for using me to "shit" at.

So, they are just mad I said what the lady was said to probably have done, and I said it nicely.

The cars keep spouting shit for her.

I was even treated like shit to not get upset about something mean that didn't matter.

They said because of this I'm feeling upset the lady goes cross-eyed feeling good.  I thought they wanted me to stop posting about these problems now.

I heard a car say I was bad, like the lady is just mad I ended up posting this here nicely.

They won't stop, trying to get under my skin to believe something I don't want in my convictions of reality.  They will probably do other things.

They just told me I was stupid and like as usual to go fuck myself, thinking I can get away with the world reacting to what I said they did this morning when I felt fine, just to make trouble in a weird way that causes me to say something they say they don't want.

Because I lived in stupid Orlando and I had a thought, the people monitoring me in private said that means I'm guilty.  I was upset they were acting like someone had to say something and I was stupid not to believe it and it seemed like the person would just copy and say the same thing.  They acted quite obnoxious like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with was really mean and so I posted it but maybe not, it was off the limb.  I didn't say it, but I'm saying now it looks like they needed it.

The cars said she already forgot about me and went on to someone else, like I did something.  This is very traumatic to me, to find it's true.  I think it will be denied in how things go, but it may be true.  She supposedly was set with me.  Whatever it was didn't bother me, but it was a laugh she was so promising and it was over, along with taking things socially in return for ever talking and "tempting" me.

That annoying noise in my house they may have made like maybe an English-Australian lady seem like she's saying something to me all day and for a long timespan kept saying I couldn't meet that lady, probably a message from that lady.

It seems like the lady had to do this, but I am not sure.

These people monitoring my life are really bad, too bad if you can't believe it, joking about not having the "relationship" with the Late Baby Boomer European lady now like I did something and it's "inconvenient."

It seems like they're fine now they made me mad and give me something else to worry about and when they get too old and die they actually forget about me, when their older parental generation doesn't leave them hanging and everyone venerates them and many work in private with their feelings to develop for the world, unless they're socially naked and getting "sex" but in a convenient way etc.

Well, apparently, they want to distract you from what I just said and are trying to test me to say I'm something stupid and annoying etc. like shit in a way.  That's also what the lady supposedly said after I was upset about the other older person. ..

...and that older person kinda acted out of control like she couldn't contain herself.  They're still asking me if it was really her.

They believe they are on top of this like they "know" why they say this lady has problems.  She's a good and normal person.

The people monitoring me in private said they were the hero and subdued her sexually.

They won't stop;

They acted like she meant I had a sex problem and was left hanging and really tacky and shit.

They are getting off as okay.

The people monitoring me in private are lying that it's not their fault.

It was in a traumatic way like I was so tacky, shit, and lost.  They just get worse and worse.  It's not "okay."  It was really bad.

Now, they swear and are excited that the lady just says shit to me to say I'm shit because someone else also used a term like "animal" to label her when she's a good person and I did to how someone else who knew her treated me.

They keep shocking and bugging me with the timing of how the page loads on the internet.  If I try to not think about it, they do it more.  They leave me hanging, after.  They just sit there and act "stupid" like they don't care or even know what's going on, like it's all okay.

I caught this other person in real shit, that the lady has to die.  I know she is just in it for herself, if this is true.

They keep fussing making a big deal of some things like I have to try hard to think around things for them.

Ew, it seems like I have to get someone older than the lady to have the "relationship" I'm supposed supposed to have with her, as though the lady herself has to let all out at her, so there was never really anything in it.  From what I gather from this, they would just think they're always right and I'm always wrong and therefore have to fight it.

They're acting like I'm "left to" a maybe English-Australian lady to get me to adapt to being treated by shit to be tested again, like I just did something wrong with what I posted.  I heard her acting like, "Oh, I have to do it."

 They won't stop adding really bad things.

 People keep blaming the lady.

They won't quit it.  They're just super excited, like they're high on coffee and taking it out on me.

So I was feeling better, and something was wrong.  I just posted it here, and now they went crazy attacking me for falling for it, acting like it's true, though.

They don't want me to think about her? or else I never meet. I am not to communicate they said.

That's not a nice thing to play around with so immaturely.  They didn't explain or suggest, they threw thoughts at me!  I don't think some people have my best interests at heart and act like everything's gonna be okay, in fact..

They kept doing it and are upset I just pressed a button and it seemed I thought something I didn't even mean to go into.

They act like they're so cool, calm, in control, and cute, while I'm some thing on display making a fool of myself!

Apparently, the Black people of East Cleveland, Ohio went crazy, and supposedly a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with is often having trouble, since becoming underground famous over me, holding in thoughts from inappropriately stimulating her, like it was done on purpose ... but anyway, the people monitoring me in private joined in.

The were really nasty, saying I should be killed in inhuman ways and reiterating she was the one who said I made her want to commit suicide.

Supposedly, someone who knows her was super angry and acted like I would hate to have to have a kid attached to me, which is also a low and dirty thing to tamper with like that and say and act like an animal testing me about.  They slammed right at me.  It probably is what she said or, like everyone, had to chose from something like a multiple choice, provided by people involved manipulating my life.

They might have gotten overexcited and started talking to me in new known ways.

I think it's people getting overly involved in my life, made boring and uneventful by them in crucial ways, that made them want to dish this out, like, as things settle, it's time to stir something up.

They think they are messing with me because I am really bad, when it was supposedly just on them.  It's annoying to deal with getting by.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting condescendingly, like I have to fear their every move, like when I load the page on my computer.

I notice someone "took it upon themselves" to act like there's something especially wrong with me, who hasn't communicated with me much.

So many people are digging deep into sensitive topics like someone bad will break the ice, anyway, but a lot of good people don't have that problem.

They keep trying to ruin my life.

I see people are eagerly overly involved.

I keep getting "bad news."

The people monitoring me in private keep swearing they're hypnotized to ruin my life.

With such people, my life has lost having hope.

For some reason, they're creating more problems concerning a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with, interfering and altering me ability to have a successful "relationship" with her.

I wonder if they're helping keep me up.

Some people are just a problem who they are.  It is not to be tampered with unsuccessfully.

They spend a lot of time on me in bad ways for no resaon.

Apparently, the people monitoring me in private are having too many problems to do this.  Someone must be blamed.  I know people aren't perfect, but I'd wonder about their all exclusive access.  Like, why do I end up in trouble for thinking of a curse word and by accident or any small physical reaction when upset and even when in private?  I said no one gives a fuck about how they are to me.  They think these things mean big punishments.  I am right, but, if anything changed from me saying something, it will probably be worse.

They did something to make the Late Baby Boomer European lady ruined forever...

They are making fun of me for it.

The Blacks here are abusive because they hate my mixed race.  They also hate Jews.

According to my world outside, the promise was broken that I be treated with dignity and respect as a human being.  Instead, it's about the Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with being separated and treated special til death and about her and I got told I'm a negative out there like I did something and it's like people don't really pay attention to me sometimes and the lady not really being as accessible as they claimed.

They're immature about my private life and prevent it's functioning properly and to its fullest.

They've helped waste my day goofing around.

They just keep beating their insecurities at me about what they've done to me.

They get frantic when I quote that they bother me, and it's like a distraction, some things.  I have to wait to recover.

They make my insecurities the final answer.

They keep trying to mellow me because I have a range of emotions like a healthy, normal person in different situations.

They keep acting like nothing just happened and end my "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady.

They are acting like I'm the one who's out of control and I have to just forget about her so she can live her life before she dies.

Then, they acted like I was stuck with them being shit and maybe that frantic maybe English-Australian lady who keeps trying to take place of that lady.

You know, the people monitoring me in private haven't commented on why the squeaks coming from the fire alarm in the living area of the group home, from running out of batteries, almost always sounds like a maybe English-Australian lady trying to displace my "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady.  Isn't that a little corny?  I mean, I know they seem to speak with how the page loads on the internet and with other noises and they set me off if I try to avert it.  It's like England dumped their "trash" on me.  They think I'm in a subdued stupor over them like this, but they "need to think again."  They keep thinking all Irish are bad except that they're close to them and not Germany.  What "idiots."

They keep bothering me and I can't post everything here.

They're making trouble out of unlikely things but horribly and like it's nothing.

They're all over the place and fail to look into the details and take things in abstractly bad ways.

I heard cars outside saying Ellen DeGeneres was ruining a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have "relationship" with.

I feel annoyed, like they are monitoring my behavior but already decided.

They keep acting disgusting, like my dad wants it.

They said because they thought I wasn't ever much.

What a cheap ploy, to try to make me feel seductively quelled like I was shit to feel upset.

They seem not to be competent/nice for this job.  They can't "give a fuck" and get it together, and I suffer as the solution.  They are superstitious about if I post here etc.

It seems suggestive the lady is made to be mean now, but I can do whatever I want and not listen to those people or anyone.

They keep making more threats.

They are made another vital threat.

They might be threatening me, like hypnotizing me to think something or else the lady says she dies to me.

They are following me more closely and snap at anything as if to show off.

I wonder if they'll stop acting suggestively slow, drawn out, and seductive.  They don't believe in me having a variety of moods and don't care if they hurt me.  So, the lady they make out like she's being that way, too, and also incapable.

 People just can't stop, they keep doing more and more and are delusional.  "Expect the unexpected."

Well, as the people monitoring me in private might know, I've been doing better alone taking bad messages but release my thoughts when I'm around others.

It takes a lot of work to deal with the people monitoring me in private, all excited coordinating all involved in this trash that resulted from them to blame.

Do you believe that these messages from these cars that are full of negativity might be the cause of significant inciter problems?  Things are fine, but a button was clicked and comes trouble, from somewhere out in the abyss.

They tire me out.

They keep messing with feelings to do with me and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

They're messing with me "sexually."

I'm sick of getting up to go to the bathroom.

This is partly about what ails the people monitoring me in private like I wanna be close to them like this.

I noticed something to be concerned about but realized it might be okay but we'll see and they hurt me in some way because there might be no hope for me, like they believe that.

They keep trying to be there for me making me "sexually" "sleepy."  They are messing with my real feelings, offended I felt upset at them for bothering me.

I'm upset because I can't change what a Late Baby Boomer European lady decides if she feels pressured, but also if I talk about problems with those concerning her maybe I'll lose even more contact and others will gain more later.

It seems important because I may have felt so upset it hurt someone monitoring me in private or just executing messages.  I know today I was upset I had nothing to return to when those around me thought it was their job to rub in things that hurt me and annoy me as people.  If I'm for no reason in trouble with the lady, I tend to feel less happy and less prone to tolerating people bothering me even more and about it, also then if I do start to feel upset about the situation with the lady that the people monitoring me in private will always hold it against me, with no consideration for that I was just trying to dodge and defend myself from other people who know.

I don't want to hurt anyone, but it feels like I have to be ready for lots of people bothering me.

What I can't stand is special rules that I can't feel upset or else, things happen, including physical signs of anger even in private.  I get mad that it will never get better.  I also lost both my parents within a few years.  Then, they say, like my dad said his mom thought once, that if it happens around something "why then!" it must be related.  His sister might have thought with the mom that I need to be stroked into submission if I feel at all aggressive or assertive-  So, now it could open a new can of worms, like the lady evolved and grew immune to something and has to be involved in this trick/game.  Moving to Ohio, it's like everything leads to the end, even things that aren't real big problems, in general.  No one said why, it just happened.  I was bamboozled.  They're just upset I was defensive when secretly abused...  I don't usually do that on purpose.

They keep inflicting others on me, like I take a joke but that maybe it's not a joke.

It's like I lost everything, like I did something.

They exploded again like this man would be the goal at the end to do with the lady.

It keeps seeming like they're leaving it to the lady, like she has a dark side and continuously warbles on if she needs to do these mean things to me.

They also say things happen to inconvenience me, saying they are punishing me for the past or "minor setbacks.  I am a good person, I only defend myself and get unavoidably provoked on purpose.

Yesterday, because I posted those problems here, they said it would be about this man with a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with not just every Saturday forever but also every day.

They think I have to do whatever they say.

Think how worthless they are being.  They're common, superficial psychologists or amateurs.

No one gives a fuck.  I don't intend to be disagreeable like others, seriously.

It seems it's not a dead topic, this man uniting with the lady in supposedly said uncomfortable ways every Saturday, "stirring up 'trouble.'"

They keep being stupid and freaking out like it's hopeless.

I keep feeling the people monitoring me in private keep creeping around me and use material of what I thought to form their own original nuisances after me.  Now, with their access to me, they have the privilege of learning and applying and misusing my thoughts against me.  Sometimes, some people do bad things.

They think they're all that like I'm some shit on a program.

I'm not here to believe the lady did it and is tricking me.

They won't stop saying/doing mean things just because I posted about this critically traumatic experience.

So many good and intellectual people are so nice to me.  Why this?  What's the excuse?  This is so nasty.  I didn't do anything.  Nothing matters when it's about me.  They think I've lived my life.  No, I've been trapped by their nonchalant, apathetic, lackadaisical, and indirect nature of getting things done and being honest, lying like I was to go on with my life without them messing it up.

They think they have a VIP to do whatever they want if they're pissed off and say it's more or calculated punishment from something else they didn't like I did a long time ago.

Other people's lives are supposed to get better, but my efforts are pushed aside, like nothing's wrong, according to some people.  Well, I don't have to work this out, as it's a problem.  Still, I am faced with adversity.  My relationship with this lady gets worse, and this really freaks me out, disgusts me, and grosses me out, you know whoever all contributed or their claim it doesn't matter, from the bad people.  How can one be cool with this?  Is this what I get attention for?  To let bad people enter and influence my life?

I shouldn't have to live under their blase scrutiny.  Other people don't.

How is this going to be faced?  I didn't do anything to deserve this inconvenience.

I wonder if the lady is upset in general because I don't acknowledge and I turn away things people say to and do to me.  I don't think most normal people, including her, would be.  Supposedly, she doesn't do "that part."  So, let's move on, in that respect, and see who did.  She probably feels "safe," though, if I accept something like this and can't take the blame.

Well, it seems nothing matters to them.

People want to inappropriately stimulate her because the people monitoring me in private note that I posted about this critically traumatic experience.  I'm not retarded and I'm not shit.

When something happens in Ohio, she is said to be really uptight.

Some bitter people are going around LIKE I'M BAD AND SHE'S GOOD.  It's very common for some.  Who cares?

I feel I will never have a "relationship" with her, and somehow my life is ruined.  What was done?

It's like, in the end, I'm pushed away from her and she gets things as a relief from me and in ways takes what was mine.  She doesn't have to keep promises amid all her limelight, and I get teased if I have problems because I have a "relationship" with her, anyway, like I don't matter.

No one is a help.  I'm pretty frustrated.

I'm supposed to look for the silver lining by myself and get just trash as messages.

Why is this man such a big deal? like in a way that ruins my life and is teased it's when they feel I did something they didn't like, even though I wasn't really bad and was probably private.  It was pretty retarded, too.  It shouldn't be a problem.  I don't know why any excuse like this would be acceptable to snap like I'm a mad animal.

Shit

Somehow, every Saturday is dedicated to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with but along with featuring a man, like to bother me and make the rest of my life "shit" like I did something.  It's probably in the hands of the lady.

Do you think they help waste my time?