Apparently, the people monitoring me in private are having too many problems to do this.  Someone must be blamed.  I know people aren't perfect, but I'd wonder about their all exclusive access.  Like, why do I end up in trouble for thinking of a curse word and by accident or any small physical reaction when upset and even when in private?  I said no one gives a fuck about how they are to me.  They think these things mean big punishments.  I am right, but, if anything changed from me saying something, it will probably be worse.