No one gives a fuck.  I don't intend to be disagreeable like others, seriously.

It seems it's not a dead topic, this man uniting with the lady in supposedly said uncomfortable ways every Saturday, "stirring up 'trouble.'"

They keep being stupid and freaking out like it's hopeless.

I keep feeling the people monitoring me in private keep creeping around me and use material of what I thought to form their own original nuisances after me.  Now, with their access to me, they have the privilege of learning and applying and misusing my thoughts against me.  Sometimes, some people do bad things.

They think they're all that like I'm some shit on a program.

I'm not here to believe the lady did it and is tricking me.

They won't stop saying/doing mean things just because I posted about this critically traumatic experience.

So many good and intellectual people are so nice to me.  Why this?  What's the excuse?  This is so nasty.  I didn't do anything.  Nothing matters when it's about me.  They think I've lived my life.  No, I've been trapped by their nonchalant, apathetic, lackadaisical, and indirect nature of getting things done and being honest, lying like I was to go on with my life without them messing it up.

They think they have a VIP to do whatever they want if they're pissed off and say it's more or calculated punishment from something else they didn't like I did a long time ago.

Other people's lives are supposed to get better, but my efforts are pushed aside, like nothing's wrong, according to some people.  Well, I don't have to work this out, as it's a problem.  Still, I am faced with adversity.  My relationship with this lady gets worse, and this really freaks me out, disgusts me, and grosses me out, you know whoever all contributed or their claim it doesn't matter, from the bad people.  How can one be cool with this?  Is this what I get attention for?  To let bad people enter and influence my life?

I shouldn't have to live under their blase scrutiny.  Other people don't.

How is this going to be faced?  I didn't do anything to deserve this inconvenience.

I wonder if the lady is upset in general because I don't acknowledge and I turn away things people say to and do to me.  I don't think most normal people, including her, would be.  Supposedly, she doesn't do "that part."  So, let's move on, in that respect, and see who did.  She probably feels "safe," though, if I accept something like this and can't take the blame.

Well, it seems nothing matters to them.

People want to inappropriately stimulate her because the people monitoring me in private note that I posted about this critically traumatic experience.  I'm not retarded and I'm not shit.

When something happens in Ohio, she is said to be really uptight.

Some bitter people are going around LIKE I'M BAD AND SHE'S GOOD.  It's very common for some.  Who cares?

I feel I will never have a "relationship" with her, and somehow my life is ruined.  What was done?

It's like, in the end, I'm pushed away from her and she gets things as a relief from me and in ways takes what was mine.  She doesn't have to keep promises amid all her limelight, and I get teased if I have problems because I have a "relationship" with her, anyway, like I don't matter.

No one is a help.  I'm pretty frustrated.

I'm supposed to look for the silver lining by myself and get just trash as messages.

Why is this man such a big deal? like in a way that ruins my life and is teased it's when they feel I did something they didn't like, even though I wasn't really bad and was probably private.  It was pretty retarded, too.  It shouldn't be a problem.  I don't know why any excuse like this would be acceptable to snap like I'm a mad animal.

Shit

Somehow, every Saturday is dedicated to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with but along with featuring a man, like to bother me and make the rest of my life "shit" like I did something.  It's probably in the hands of the lady.

Do you think they help waste my time?