For some reason, I feel the people monitoring me in private are hovering over me like I "just realized something."  Something's been bothering me for 8 months, around when my dad died, something I did when I felt bad, nothing really illegal.  These people won't leave me alone it feels, like they want to over-effect me, like when the fire detector felt like it was talking at least like every 20 seconds for a few months and that it was a maybe English-Australian lady, trying to displace and take over a "relationship" I was supposedly supposed to have with an Late Baby Boomer European lady.  It seems like "no one gives a fuck" about what they do to me because they have the people monitoring me in private to punish me for even accidentally thinking of a curse word because people in school etc. used to a lot.  It feels they may ruin me, and my hatred is boiling.  I might almost make it, and something they say might set off my day.  I have to realize who's really bad and who's really more innocent, so I'm not in the wrong "frame of mind."