I feel people are looking to my life to see if they can detract from it something important at the time, waiting around, and say it's my discipline to watch out if I did something.

They restrict my hope.

They think they need to surround me like I did something bad to make my life exciting, but it takes away from my productivity.

The cars outside keep sending bad messages and are inclined to say it was from the lady.

They might be ruining my body.

I'm tired from them beating me up and staring me down.

They keep acting out of place and are convinced I feel for it, and it probably makes me look bad.

These people monitoring me in private are pissing me off.  They keep thinking I agree I'm bad and ruining my life.

So, they ended up saying the lady is not all that, like because of something I did they found out.

They don't give a fuck on their part and are tormenting me for feeling upset and whatever I thought when made more upset but also because of somewhat more mild physical reactions of feeling tormented by them in private.  I stayed home to avoid trouble as much as possible, and they are ruining my life.

Not that you can handle this idea, but I can't always escape the people monitoring me in private.  They find excuse to blame me, but they don't makes sense.  I didn't do anything that I deserve to be tormented so nor anymore than anyone else.

They keep getting more picky rather than more cooperative.  They act like I was really bad to even show a little physical sign of anger in private.