They seem not to be competent/nice for this job. They can't "give a fuck" and get it together, and I suffer as the solution. They are superstitious about if I post here etc.
Monday, October 25, 2021
They are following me more closely and snap at anything as if to show off.
I wonder if they'll stop acting suggestively slow, drawn out, and seductive. They don't believe in me having a variety of moods and don't care if they hurt me. So, the lady they make out like she's being that way, too, and also incapable.
Sunday, October 24, 2021
It keeps seeming like they're leaving it to the lady, like she has a dark side and continuously warbles on if she needs to do these mean things to me.
They also say things happen to inconvenience me, saying they are punishing me for the past or "minor setbacks. I am a good person, I only defend myself and get unavoidably provoked on purpose.
Yesterday, because I posted those problems here, they said it would be about this man with a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with not just every Saturday forever but also every day.
They think I have to do whatever they say.
Think how worthless they are being. They're common, superficial psychologists or amateurs.
Saturday, October 23, 2021
I keep feeling the people monitoring me in private keep creeping around me and use material of what I thought to form their own original nuisances after me. Now, with their access to me, they have the privilege of learning and applying and misusing my thoughts against me. Sometimes, some people do bad things.
They think they're all that like I'm some shit on a program.
It's like, in the end, I'm pushed away from her and she gets things as a relief from me and in ways takes what was mine. She doesn't have to keep promises amid all her limelight, and I get teased if I have problems because I have a "relationship" with her, anyway, like I don't matter.
No one is a help. I'm pretty frustrated.
I'm supposed to look for the silver lining by myself and get just trash as messages.
Why is this man such a big deal? like in a way that ruins my life and is teased it's when they feel I did something they didn't like, even though I wasn't really bad and was probably private. It was pretty retarded, too. It shouldn't be a problem. I don't know why any excuse like this would be acceptable to snap like I'm a mad animal.
Shit
Somehow, every Saturday is dedicated to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with but along with featuring a man, like to bother me and make the rest of my life "shit" like I did something. It's probably in the hands of the lady.
Friday, October 22, 2021
Thursday, October 21, 2021
Wednesday, October 20, 2021
They don't give a fuck on their part and are tormenting me for feeling upset and whatever I thought when made more upset but also because of somewhat more mild physical reactions of feeling tormented by them in private. I stayed home to avoid trouble as much as possible, and they are ruining my life.
Tuesday, October 19, 2021
People keep seeing me as a savage beast and paint a different picture of what actually happened and make it seem much worse and in the end always get away with being ridiculous, people sitting on their tushes like there's nothing better for some people to do.
They're stalling time so I can't accomplish.
See, now people ruined it for me. I thought I just faintly caught that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with had to forget about me, that she's just "gonna die" and gave our "relationship" for her away to someone else, instead.
Those people knew how delicate these situations are and made it hard for me! No one gives a fuck!
Wait, I heard more. I keep hearing bad news from the cars outside. I feel a picture was painted of me that's clearly mostly fantasized that I am the bad guy. What do I do now? This is no. joke to me. I don't joke about the truth, in ways, because it's wrong.
I'm gonna go eat. I got some more sleep and got tired. I didn't even get to take a shower etc.
I don't know why it's so weird that it's so easy to point fingers at me in Ohio. I know the people monitoring me in private just "drop it like it's hot." They just use my uncertainties to turn them into insecurities.
Everyone around me is such shit. What am I dealing with their sin for?
Sunday, October 17, 2021
Saturday, October 16, 2021
Friday, October 15, 2021
They are still "just sitting there" not telling me if these noises are just messages and don't care if I feel hurt like something is often bad or not good happening to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.
So, I had an idea, but I know it isn't true probably. I remember maybe they made these things seem so anyway.
Thursday, October 14, 2021
They get upset if I talk to other people I like a lot like I'm gonna get to talk to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with and therefore shouldn't. It's just a calendar of her getting inappropriately stimulated with major checkpoints. I notice I still talk to other people.. It's like it's thought of as a good idea, without a sensible explanation. They even reserve people who talk to them but are not me.. Actually, I usually feel pretty alone, abandoned.
It's funny like I'm supposed to ignore stuff and everyone else gets in some hype but sometimes supposedly catastrophically.
I keep waking up to people panicking, sometimes, that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with has a problem and like it's collectively my fault and will affect my happiness, like, all the time. They're looking for excitement. They think this is necessary, in fact, but in this case seem rather pathetic. Older people seem able to function despite all odds, while younger people struggle, today. So, I'm wondering "what all the fuss is about." Supposedly, people ganged up on her and inappropriately stimulated her, because her situation she got underground famous over me and they think someone else will do it worse if they don't, but that's just who they are and everyone keeps doing things like this. They are blaming me for my thoughts.