Monday, October 25, 2021

They seem not to be competent/nice for this job.  They can't "give a fuck" and get it together, and I suffer as the solution.  They are superstitious about if I post here etc.

It seems suggestive the lady is made to be mean now, but I can do whatever I want and not listen to those people or anyone.

They keep making more threats.

They are made another vital threat.

They might be threatening me, like hypnotizing me to think something or else the lady says she dies to me.

They are following me more closely and snap at anything as if to show off.

I wonder if they'll stop acting suggestively slow, drawn out, and seductive.  They don't believe in me having a variety of moods and don't care if they hurt me.  So, the lady they make out like she's being that way, too, and also incapable.

Sunday, October 24, 2021

 People just can't stop, they keep doing more and more and are delusional.  "Expect the unexpected."

Well, as the people monitoring me in private might know, I've been doing better alone taking bad messages but release my thoughts when I'm around others.

It takes a lot of work to deal with the people monitoring me in private, all excited coordinating all involved in this trash that resulted from them to blame.

Do you believe that these messages from these cars that are full of negativity might be the cause of significant inciter problems?  Things are fine, but a button was clicked and comes trouble, from somewhere out in the abyss.

They tire me out.

They keep messing with feelings to do with me and a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

They're messing with me "sexually."

I'm sick of getting up to go to the bathroom.

This is partly about what ails the people monitoring me in private like I wanna be close to them like this.

I noticed something to be concerned about but realized it might be okay but we'll see and they hurt me in some way because there might be no hope for me, like they believe that.

They keep trying to be there for me making me "sexually" "sleepy."  They are messing with my real feelings, offended I felt upset at them for bothering me.

I'm upset because I can't change what a Late Baby Boomer European lady decides if she feels pressured, but also if I talk about problems with those concerning her maybe I'll lose even more contact and others will gain more later.

It seems important because I may have felt so upset it hurt someone monitoring me in private or just executing messages.  I know today I was upset I had nothing to return to when those around me thought it was their job to rub in things that hurt me and annoy me as people.  If I'm for no reason in trouble with the lady, I tend to feel less happy and less prone to tolerating people bothering me even more and about it, also then if I do start to feel upset about the situation with the lady that the people monitoring me in private will always hold it against me, with no consideration for that I was just trying to dodge and defend myself from other people who know.

I don't want to hurt anyone, but it feels like I have to be ready for lots of people bothering me.

What I can't stand is special rules that I can't feel upset or else, things happen, including physical signs of anger even in private.  I get mad that it will never get better.  I also lost both my parents within a few years.  Then, they say, like my dad said his mom thought once, that if it happens around something "why then!" it must be related.  His sister might have thought with the mom that I need to be stroked into submission if I feel at all aggressive or assertive-  So, now it could open a new can of worms, like the lady evolved and grew immune to something and has to be involved in this trick/game.  Moving to Ohio, it's like everything leads to the end, even things that aren't real big problems, in general.  No one said why, it just happened.  I was bamboozled.  They're just upset I was defensive when secretly abused...  I don't usually do that on purpose.

They keep inflicting others on me, like I take a joke but that maybe it's not a joke.

It's like I lost everything, like I did something.

They exploded again like this man would be the goal at the end to do with the lady.

It keeps seeming like they're leaving it to the lady, like she has a dark side and continuously warbles on if she needs to do these mean things to me.

They also say things happen to inconvenience me, saying they are punishing me for the past or "minor setbacks.  I am a good person, I only defend myself and get unavoidably provoked on purpose.

Yesterday, because I posted those problems here, they said it would be about this man with a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with not just every Saturday forever but also every day.

They think I have to do whatever they say.

Think how worthless they are being.  They're common, superficial psychologists or amateurs.

Saturday, October 23, 2021

No one gives a fuck.  I don't intend to be disagreeable like others, seriously.

It seems it's not a dead topic, this man uniting with the lady in supposedly said uncomfortable ways every Saturday, "stirring up 'trouble.'"

They keep being stupid and freaking out like it's hopeless.

I keep feeling the people monitoring me in private keep creeping around me and use material of what I thought to form their own original nuisances after me.  Now, with their access to me, they have the privilege of learning and applying and misusing my thoughts against me.  Sometimes, some people do bad things.

They think they're all that like I'm some shit on a program.

I'm not here to believe the lady did it and is tricking me.

They won't stop saying/doing mean things just because I posted about this critically traumatic experience.

So many good and intellectual people are so nice to me.  Why this?  What's the excuse?  This is so nasty.  I didn't do anything.  Nothing matters when it's about me.  They think I've lived my life.  No, I've been trapped by their nonchalant, apathetic, lackadaisical, and indirect nature of getting things done and being honest, lying like I was to go on with my life without them messing it up.

They think they have a VIP to do whatever they want if they're pissed off and say it's more or calculated punishment from something else they didn't like I did a long time ago.

Other people's lives are supposed to get better, but my efforts are pushed aside, like nothing's wrong, according to some people.  Well, I don't have to work this out, as it's a problem.  Still, I am faced with adversity.  My relationship with this lady gets worse, and this really freaks me out, disgusts me, and grosses me out, you know whoever all contributed or their claim it doesn't matter, from the bad people.  How can one be cool with this?  Is this what I get attention for?  To let bad people enter and influence my life?

I shouldn't have to live under their blase scrutiny.  Other people don't.

How is this going to be faced?  I didn't do anything to deserve this inconvenience.

I wonder if the lady is upset in general because I don't acknowledge and I turn away things people say to and do to me.  I don't think most normal people, including her, would be.  Supposedly, she doesn't do "that part."  So, let's move on, in that respect, and see who did.  She probably feels "safe," though, if I accept something like this and can't take the blame.

Well, it seems nothing matters to them.

People want to inappropriately stimulate her because the people monitoring me in private note that I posted about this critically traumatic experience.  I'm not retarded and I'm not shit.

When something happens in Ohio, she is said to be really uptight.

Some bitter people are going around LIKE I'M BAD AND SHE'S GOOD.  It's very common for some.  Who cares?

I feel I will never have a "relationship" with her, and somehow my life is ruined.  What was done?

It's like, in the end, I'm pushed away from her and she gets things as a relief from me and in ways takes what was mine.  She doesn't have to keep promises amid all her limelight, and I get teased if I have problems because I have a "relationship" with her, anyway, like I don't matter.

No one is a help.  I'm pretty frustrated.

I'm supposed to look for the silver lining by myself and get just trash as messages.

Why is this man such a big deal? like in a way that ruins my life and is teased it's when they feel I did something they didn't like, even though I wasn't really bad and was probably private.  It was pretty retarded, too.  It shouldn't be a problem.  I don't know why any excuse like this would be acceptable to snap like I'm a mad animal.

Shit

Somehow, every Saturday is dedicated to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with but along with featuring a man, like to bother me and make the rest of my life "shit" like I did something.  It's probably in the hands of the lady.

Do you think they help waste my time?

Friday, October 22, 2021

When I try to cool down, they make me feel bad.

They're just picking on me and not letting me cope with a problem.

Thursday, October 21, 2021

They won't stop saying more shit to post here that ruins my life.

It seems the stimulation is going in excess to Late Baby Boomers and their Generation YZA children.

They keep inappropriately finding ways that an Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with get stimulated.

They're following me making little noises around the group home.

They are ruining a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to hav a "relationship" with.

They keep acting like it's not working out.

The people monitoring me in private are being very mean to me.

Fact, they keep popping in like they're good and I'm bad.

It seems like the thing to do to always give me a comeback.
Fact, the people monitoring me in private keep acting awkwardly.

They go crazy if they don't understand something and don't own that they couldn't answer my questions.

I noticed they make me more mad if I'm a little mad, and they get mad if I think of a curse word or something.

Wednesday, October 20, 2021

I feel people are looking to my life to see if they can detract from it something important at the time, waiting around, and say it's my discipline to watch out if I did something.

They restrict my hope.

They think they need to surround me like I did something bad to make my life exciting, but it takes away from my productivity.

The cars outside keep sending bad messages and are inclined to say it was from the lady.

They might be ruining my body.

I'm tired from them beating me up and staring me down.

They keep acting out of place and are convinced I feel for it, and it probably makes me look bad.

These people monitoring me in private are pissing me off.  They keep thinking I agree I'm bad and ruining my life.

So, they ended up saying the lady is not all that, like because of something I did they found out.

They don't give a fuck on their part and are tormenting me for feeling upset and whatever I thought when made more upset but also because of somewhat more mild physical reactions of feeling tormented by them in private.  I stayed home to avoid trouble as much as possible, and they are ruining my life.

Not that you can handle this idea, but I can't always escape the people monitoring me in private.  They find excuse to blame me, but they don't makes sense.  I didn't do anything that I deserve to be tormented so nor anymore than anyone else.

They keep getting more picky rather than more cooperative.  They act like I was really bad to even show a little physical sign of anger in private.

Tuesday, October 19, 2021

They said I couldn't have a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady, like something went wrong or I'm "not as good as" she is.

Why try?

It's too late to try to make things better, with them..

So, I wonder what people have been up to around the area and world, while I slept.

They keep trying to make me seem older than a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with because it ticked me off and I emitted a physical response.

I think I saw they went crazy because I may have forgotten my pills one night..

The cars said the lady thinks I must have problems but "just like my dad."

I've already said I've noticed that it looks too easy to take away things from me by pretending I'm in trouble.

They make problems that don't get fixed, it seems, and they even bribe that they have to be.

They keep thinking they say stuff and then they fix it, but in the process a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with was turned into a baby! whoever did it and however it was done.

It's like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly am supposed to have a relationship with is dead to me now just because I noticed something and was slightly upset.

People keep seeing me as a savage beast and paint a different picture of what actually happened and make it seem much worse and in the end always get away with being ridiculous, people sitting on their tushes like there's nothing better for some people to do.

They're stalling time so I can't accomplish.

I've expressed my problems, and now it's too late!!!

I just realized I'm supposed to have some way to relieve my frustration a bit physically rather than sitting there like a stone statue.  Everyone knows.  Instead of going crazy when it's too late.

I was told to acquire the problems of someone else.

The cars outside dish out more and more problems, some of which they have to have been told by them as an outside source maybe recently.

They alter how the page load on the computer to send a message across!

So, it's like I just lost everything for no reason.

They won't stop forcing me to be certain ways where the Late Baby Boomer European lady feels younger than me like a baby, and it's someone else treating me like shit and I can't stand it.  They want my body to change!

It won't stop.

I said to stop.

They won't stop being mean to me.

They said maybe they're not kidding, like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with turned into a baby like it's "actually" her overall dream..

I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING

See, now people ruined it for me.  I thought I just faintly caught that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with had to forget about me, that she's just "gonna die" and gave our "relationship" for her away to someone else, instead.

Those people knew how delicate these situations are and made it hard for me!  No one gives a fuck!

Wait, I heard more.  I keep hearing bad news from the cars outside.  I feel a picture was painted of me that's clearly mostly fantasized that I am the bad guy.  What do I do now?  This is no. joke to me.  I don't joke about the truth, in ways, because it's wrong.

I'm gonna go eat.  I got some more sleep and got tired.  I didn't even get to take a shower etc.

I don't know why it's so weird that it's so easy to point fingers at me in Ohio.  I know the people monitoring me in private just "drop it like it's hot."  They just use my uncertainties to turn them into insecurities.

Everyone around me is such shit.  What am I dealing with their sin for?

They keep threatening and now more to ruin a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.
These people won't stop acting disgusting on purpose.  They listened to my dad.  They think that's my fascination / role model form.
Things are considered my fault if brought up by others around me.  I just try to fix my feeling bad, and they say that means "doing something" for me.

There's a new thing, in case you didn't notice, that, if anything is a little weird and disagreeable, now it's over for me.  It's because now I'm in Ohio and not Orlando, but to me it doesn't mean anything.  I think this, saying where you live determines if you can feel accomplished/satisfactory or well off etc. in different situations, seems to remind me of things as the result of some Baby Boomer "trash" and how they ruined it for the good people of Generation XY and thought good people were actually worse than bad people.

I'm being pretty even keel, but they just tend to beat me up.

The people monitoring me in private are doing things to me they would never do if my parents were alive to witness it.

They like to act stupid and point fingers at me and won't "shut up" when something doesn't click right with them.

I was attacked again, like no one gives a shit.  I'm supposed to not be upset about what happens.  I don't think I technically meant anything bad.  This is actually wrong.  They think it's a game for me to play.

Sunday, October 17, 2021

Apparently, the circumstances mean nothing, either way.

It's like I did something.

I feel inadvertently in trouble for feeling upset about what a car said about something I just saw.  Thanks for this day, I don't take this crap about getting in my way.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting superficial and mean.

I keep getting bad news about a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older lady.

I have to keep listening to the stupidity of their projects on me.

Saturday, October 16, 2021

People have made life unreasonable in expectation.

It takes time for my body to settle down after being shocked.  It happens rather cyclically and often.

The people monitoring me in private area acting stupid again and want me to feel a goofy way in code.

Friday, October 15, 2021

Why do somehow see myself out if I did what they did to me?  I never agreed, it was not my idea, and it spun out of control.  They/People just sat there when I inquired if they believed that this was needed to feel something.

It seems my life is always ruined, no matter what.

They are still "just sitting there" not telling me if these noises are just messages and don't care if I feel hurt like something is often bad or not good happening to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

So, I had an idea, but I know it isn't true probably.  I remember maybe they made these things seem so anyway.

Thursday, October 14, 2021

They keep over-simplifying issues like if I disagree I'm being defiant.

They keep bringing to light differences of convictions.

The people monitoring me in private act like lunatics.  They think they're all that and just trashing my life, like I "like" to come to them and for intelligence sake.

The Late Baby Boomer European lady keeps being shown to have strange antics like I must be in trouble.

It's like I'm considered in trouble to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with.  There's ll these distractions and excuses.

They just go in and do it.

The people monitoring me in private keep tormenting me in different ways.

I noticed they keep picking on me like I'm supposed to post it but then again they don't want me to ... "or else."  If I do, I just feel laughed at, in a certain case.

They get upset if I talk to other people I like a lot like I'm gonna get to talk to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with and therefore shouldn't.  It's just a calendar of her getting inappropriately stimulated with major checkpoints.  I notice I still talk to other people..  It's like it's thought of as a good idea, without a sensible explanation.  They even reserve people who talk to them but are not me..  Actually, I usually feel pretty alone, abandoned.

It's funny like I'm supposed to ignore stuff and everyone else gets in some hype but sometimes supposedly catastrophically.

I keep waking up to people panicking, sometimes, that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with has a problem and like it's collectively my fault and will affect my happiness, like, all the time.  They're looking for excitement.  They think this is necessary, in fact, but in this case seem rather pathetic.  Older people seem able to function despite all odds, while younger people struggle, today.  So, I'm wondering "what all the fuss is about."  Supposedly, people ganged up on her and inappropriately stimulated her, because her situation she got underground famous over me and they think someone else will do it worse if they don't, but that's just who they are and everyone keeps doing things like this. They are blaming me for my thoughts.