Tuesday, October 19, 2021

They said I couldn't have a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with a Late Baby Boomer European lady, like something went wrong or I'm "not as good as" she is.

Why try?

It's too late to try to make things better, with them..

So, I wonder what people have been up to around the area and world, while I slept.

They keep trying to make me seem older than a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with because it ticked me off and I emitted a physical response.

I think I saw they went crazy because I may have forgotten my pills one night..

The cars said the lady thinks I must have problems but "just like my dad."

I've already said I've noticed that it looks too easy to take away things from me by pretending I'm in trouble.

They make problems that don't get fixed, it seems, and they even bribe that they have to be.

They keep thinking they say stuff and then they fix it, but in the process a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with was turned into a baby! whoever did it and however it was done.

It's like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly am supposed to have a relationship with is dead to me now just because I noticed something and was slightly upset.

People keep seeing me as a savage beast and paint a different picture of what actually happened and make it seem much worse and in the end always get away with being ridiculous, people sitting on their tushes like there's nothing better for some people to do.

They're stalling time so I can't accomplish.

I've expressed my problems, and now it's too late!!!

I just realized I'm supposed to have some way to relieve my frustration a bit physically rather than sitting there like a stone statue.  Everyone knows.  Instead of going crazy when it's too late.

I was told to acquire the problems of someone else.

The cars outside dish out more and more problems, some of which they have to have been told by them as an outside source maybe recently.

They alter how the page load on the computer to send a message across!

So, it's like I just lost everything for no reason.

They won't stop forcing me to be certain ways where the Late Baby Boomer European lady feels younger than me like a baby, and it's someone else treating me like shit and I can't stand it.  They want my body to change!

It won't stop.

I said to stop.

They won't stop being mean to me.

They said maybe they're not kidding, like a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with turned into a baby like it's "actually" her overall dream..

I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING

See, now people ruined it for me.  I thought I just faintly caught that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with had to forget about me, that she's just "gonna die" and gave our "relationship" for her away to someone else, instead.

Those people knew how delicate these situations are and made it hard for me!  No one gives a fuck!

Wait, I heard more.  I keep hearing bad news from the cars outside.  I feel a picture was painted of me that's clearly mostly fantasized that I am the bad guy.  What do I do now?  This is no. joke to me.  I don't joke about the truth, in ways, because it's wrong.

I'm gonna go eat.  I got some more sleep and got tired.  I didn't even get to take a shower etc.

I don't know why it's so weird that it's so easy to point fingers at me in Ohio.  I know the people monitoring me in private just "drop it like it's hot."  They just use my uncertainties to turn them into insecurities.

Everyone around me is such shit.  What am I dealing with their sin for?

They keep threatening and now more to ruin a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.
These people won't stop acting disgusting on purpose.  They listened to my dad.  They think that's my fascination / role model form.
Things are considered my fault if brought up by others around me.  I just try to fix my feeling bad, and they say that means "doing something" for me.

There's a new thing, in case you didn't notice, that, if anything is a little weird and disagreeable, now it's over for me.  It's because now I'm in Ohio and not Orlando, but to me it doesn't mean anything.  I think this, saying where you live determines if you can feel accomplished/satisfactory or well off etc. in different situations, seems to remind me of things as the result of some Baby Boomer "trash" and how they ruined it for the good people of Generation XY and thought good people were actually worse than bad people.

I'm being pretty even keel, but they just tend to beat me up.

The people monitoring me in private are doing things to me they would never do if my parents were alive to witness it.

They like to act stupid and point fingers at me and won't "shut up" when something doesn't click right with them.

I was attacked again, like no one gives a shit.  I'm supposed to not be upset about what happens.  I don't think I technically meant anything bad.  This is actually wrong.  They think it's a game for me to play.

Sunday, October 17, 2021

Apparently, the circumstances mean nothing, either way.

It's like I did something.

I feel inadvertently in trouble for feeling upset about what a car said about something I just saw.  Thanks for this day, I don't take this crap about getting in my way.

The people monitoring me in private keep acting superficial and mean.

I keep getting bad news about a "relationship" I'm supposedly supposed to have with an older lady.

I have to keep listening to the stupidity of their projects on me.

Saturday, October 16, 2021

People have made life unreasonable in expectation.

It takes time for my body to settle down after being shocked.  It happens rather cyclically and often.

The people monitoring me in private area acting stupid again and want me to feel a goofy way in code.

Friday, October 15, 2021

Why do somehow see myself out if I did what they did to me?  I never agreed, it was not my idea, and it spun out of control.  They/People just sat there when I inquired if they believed that this was needed to feel something.

It seems my life is always ruined, no matter what.

They are still "just sitting there" not telling me if these noises are just messages and don't care if I feel hurt like something is often bad or not good happening to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

So, I had an idea, but I know it isn't true probably.  I remember maybe they made these things seem so anyway.

Thursday, October 14, 2021

They keep over-simplifying issues like if I disagree I'm being defiant.

They keep bringing to light differences of convictions.

The people monitoring me in private act like lunatics.  They think they're all that and just trashing my life, like I "like" to come to them and for intelligence sake.

The Late Baby Boomer European lady keeps being shown to have strange antics like I must be in trouble.

It's like I'm considered in trouble to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with.  There's ll these distractions and excuses.

They just go in and do it.

The people monitoring me in private keep tormenting me in different ways.

I noticed they keep picking on me like I'm supposed to post it but then again they don't want me to ... "or else."  If I do, I just feel laughed at, in a certain case.

They get upset if I talk to other people I like a lot like I'm gonna get to talk to a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with and therefore shouldn't.  It's just a calendar of her getting inappropriately stimulated with major checkpoints.  I notice I still talk to other people..  It's like it's thought of as a good idea, without a sensible explanation.  They even reserve people who talk to them but are not me..  Actually, I usually feel pretty alone, abandoned.

It's funny like I'm supposed to ignore stuff and everyone else gets in some hype but sometimes supposedly catastrophically.

I keep waking up to people panicking, sometimes, that a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a relationship with has a problem and like it's collectively my fault and will affect my happiness, like, all the time.  They're looking for excitement.  They think this is necessary, in fact, but in this case seem rather pathetic.  Older people seem able to function despite all odds, while younger people struggle, today.  So, I'm wondering "what all the fuss is about."  Supposedly, people ganged up on her and inappropriately stimulated her, because her situation she got underground famous over me and they think someone else will do it worse if they don't, but that's just who they are and everyone keeps doing things like this. They are blaming me for my thoughts.

Thursday, October 7, 2021

For some reason, I feel the people monitoring me in private are hovering over me like I "just realized something."  Something's been bothering me for 8 months, around when my dad died, something I did when I felt bad, nothing really illegal.  These people won't leave me alone it feels, like they want to over-effect me, like when the fire detector felt like it was talking at least like every 20 seconds for a few months and that it was a maybe English-Australian lady, trying to displace and take over a "relationship" I was supposedly supposed to have with an Late Baby Boomer European lady.  It seems like "no one gives a fuck" about what they do to me because they have the people monitoring me in private to punish me for even accidentally thinking of a curse word because people in school etc. used to a lot.  It feels they may ruin me, and my hatred is boiling.  I might almost make it, and something they say might set off my day.  I have to realize who's really bad and who's really more innocent, so I'm not in the wrong "frame of mind."

Wednesday, October 6, 2021

Suddenly, I sensed spill someone ruining a Late Baby Boomer European lady I'm supposedly supposed to have a "relationship" with.

Everyone is just sitting there, lackadaisical, like "dead."  It's sorta inappropriate to be a suction to life.