It seems Cleveland is considered special and I'm under the mercy of superficial rules of my personal thoughts.  I wouldn't want to hurt anyone.  I do feel vulnerable, though, so I will feel "down" and frustrated.  It seems I need to move around if I'm alone, and I need to get away and rest if I'm with people, if I want to stop getting in trouble with the people monitoring me in private for my private thoughts.  I honestly think it's unfortunately involved in something, possibly, with either something alien or something "divine."   (I'm posting that last sentence on my blog.)